First time conjures up thoughts of heavy breathing and rubbing hips and him spilling filthy words in the shower with his hand wrapped around Caleb's cock, and Neil blushes as Caleb kisses his cheek. It conjures up Caleb's quick trigger and also his stamina, that they've been experimenting with and exploring in the month since.

"I had a girlfriend when I first got to Darrow," Neil says, "but we didn't do anything, and then we broke up. So I definitely don't know what we're doing."

But he laughs about it. "I mean. I know where things can go, but. You know."