Caleb has amazing hands, and it's not the first time that he's rubbed Neil's shoulders. But it's different, with slimmer shoulders, and so Neil appreciates the slow ease into the touch.

And he appreciates the ease of dropping the subject. It makes it easy to focus on this moment instead: being here, being touched, being taken care of. He likes all of this.

"Up in the neck," he says, quiet, almost a little breathless.