"Yeah, but I couldn't handle my emotions the first bit, so I wouldn't want you to deal with that."

And that shows, he thinks, how much things have changed in the time he's been in Darrow. But he doesn't get to that. Instead, he sits up and reaches for the hot chocolate, smiling a little and blushing just a little because he's dolled it up neatly and sweetly, whipped cream and all.