It's embarrassing to say it out loud, to make the words come. But he almost doesn't need to. Steve touches him, confident about it now, unabashed and unashamed of it, and Neil chokes out a little, "Gonna come," because he's almost there.

With all the slickness and teasing, the way their hips nudge against each other, he can imagine what it would be like to have Steve inside him. Maybe some other time. If there is another time.