The worst part of it is that Rosie doesn't even pretend like Caleb might not just move on. That's fair, but it feels very reiterative, and not at all what Neil wants to hear right. But he can't--he can't demand that of her. She's his best friend, and he can't make her say things that don't make sense to say.

"No," he says. Then, quickly, he says, "Of course I want to be friends with him. But I mean, I don't want to be just friends with him. I worked...I worked so hard to not just let myself feel a lot again, but to...to tell him? To tell him I love him."

He wipes his nose and sniffles even though he's not overwhelmed and he hasn't cried this whole time.

"It just sucks to find out that I was a replacement this whole time. Like, what..."