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shadows_have_offended) wrote2021-04-10 01:12 pm
shadows_have_offended) wrote2021-04-10 01:12 pm
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The mortifying ordeal of being known | for Rosie
Neil calls out of work for the following week, citing the flu.
He thinks about quitting, but that seems awfully rash. He thinks about a lot of things on the long walk back from Caleb's apartment to his and Rosie's. But the brutal agony of feeling broken and fundamentally second string is so familiar that he almost wears it like a coat. The worst part of it is that nobody knows. Nobody in the street understands what's just happened or thinks anything of it, and he goes about the walk in utter, unobtrusive silence.
His whole world has shifted, but it's just his world. Isn't that always how it is?
When he gets back to the apartment, Mercy Beau is almost instantly on him, trailing right behind his heels as he heads into the kitchen and looks for a bottle of scotch and the pack of cigarettes that he's carefully avoided touching since his and Caleb's little argument about it at Christmas. He puts one between his lips without lighting it as he pours himself a drink and then just stares at it.
In the end, he sinks down onto the kitchen floor.
He thinks about quitting, but that seems awfully rash. He thinks about a lot of things on the long walk back from Caleb's apartment to his and Rosie's. But the brutal agony of feeling broken and fundamentally second string is so familiar that he almost wears it like a coat. The worst part of it is that nobody knows. Nobody in the street understands what's just happened or thinks anything of it, and he goes about the walk in utter, unobtrusive silence.
His whole world has shifted, but it's just his world. Isn't that always how it is?
When he gets back to the apartment, Mercy Beau is almost instantly on him, trailing right behind his heels as he heads into the kitchen and looks for a bottle of scotch and the pack of cigarettes that he's carefully avoided touching since his and Caleb's little argument about it at Christmas. He puts one between his lips without lighting it as he pours himself a drink and then just stares at it.
In the end, he sinks down onto the kitchen floor.